Trying to forget...
Forgive you...
If you fall I will too...
I cant save whats left of you...
The end is only the beginning...
I believe in you...
I can see right throw all your empty lies...
Goodbye...
Hold on...
It all takes my breath away...
I can't live without you...
Every things ok...
I love you please see and believe again...
Wait and know I understand you...
I can't face the dark without you...
Nothing left to lose...
White shores are calling...
I love you...
Their words in her memory flowed into her mind as she slept. The soft thin summer cotton sheets wrapped them self's tightly around her ankles holding her body still on the bed. Her arms lay still by her head, though her fingers twitched every few moments the only indication that she was indeed asleep and dreaming. The look upon her face would give no indication what so ever as to what she was dreaming. In the morning she would rise and pack her bag. It was time to go back...
Among the chaos of her life. ~ past, present and thoughts ~ The personal journal of one Viviane Masukami
Wednesday, June 2, 2010
Monday, March 29, 2010
Awaking and so much more
Vivian P. Lurra awoke on the hard stone alter in the church. Denenthorn stood ling over her, blinking a few times she slowly takes in her surroundings only to here a cats giggle, turning her head she also finds Green Leigh standing there. After a few moments and a small discussion with Leigh fallowed by a couple of slaps to the head she hears Denny tell her to go to the office. Sighing she does as shes told. Knowing full well that he was angrier at her then he had ever been before.
A few days later Vivi returned to the church. Which she had come to find out that while she had been 'dead' Denny had taken management over... She sighed as she sat down at one of the benches folding both of her hands calmly together she bet her head to pray softly.. After she had spoken her prays she stood walking calmly to the doors. Once out side Vivi toke in a small breath of air, in ways it felt nice to be back in others she dreaded this city it had done things to those whom she loved and that alone had caused her heartache... sitting down silently atop the steps she watched as her beloved Denenthorn rode back and forth on his motorcycle before he came to a stop. She watched as he parked the bike and layed down in the seat. The silence in the air wasn't heavy felling but a rather light one. After a moment she looked upward watching the clouds move. Then he spoke simply saying that he missed the sound of crickets. Then after a few moments he asks a question that he has asked her seemingly a thousand plus times. "would she marry him." and as always her answer has been "yes." though this time apparently Denny hadn't been playing with her when he asked. All she could do was smile and tell him that her answer was still the same as it always is. They talked a little while and decided on a date... They would get married April 11.... Finally for the first time in the many times that they had gotten married before this time it would be official.
A few days later Vivi returned to the church. Which she had come to find out that while she had been 'dead' Denny had taken management over... She sighed as she sat down at one of the benches folding both of her hands calmly together she bet her head to pray softly.. After she had spoken her prays she stood walking calmly to the doors. Once out side Vivi toke in a small breath of air, in ways it felt nice to be back in others she dreaded this city it had done things to those whom she loved and that alone had caused her heartache... sitting down silently atop the steps she watched as her beloved Denenthorn rode back and forth on his motorcycle before he came to a stop. She watched as he parked the bike and layed down in the seat. The silence in the air wasn't heavy felling but a rather light one. After a moment she looked upward watching the clouds move. Then he spoke simply saying that he missed the sound of crickets. Then after a few moments he asks a question that he has asked her seemingly a thousand plus times. "would she marry him." and as always her answer has been "yes." though this time apparently Denny hadn't been playing with her when he asked. All she could do was smile and tell him that her answer was still the same as it always is. They talked a little while and decided on a date... They would get married April 11.... Finally for the first time in the many times that they had gotten married before this time it would be official.
Tuesday, March 16, 2010
Forever love.....
Laying in her bed one would think that she was simply having a peaceful sleep. But to the trained eye she wasn't. The rapid movement of her eye lids hardly noticeable. The sheets lay at the bottom of her bed twisted around her ankles. While her slender yet strong arms were resting beside her head on the pillow. Eyes watched the female as she slept, sighing lightly the figure turned, heading straight for the solid pine doors that lead out of her room. Opening the door the figure turned to look once more, a very soft male voice sighed then said quietly to the female, "rest mother..."
As the male walked out shutting the door behind him he walked down the hall towards a set of double doors. Pushing them open the young male looked up an older male. Their faces looking similar to each others though the younger seemed to have traces of the females looks. "Father." the younger said. Watching as the elder nod his head lightly not looking up from the book he was currently looking at.
Walking up to the desk then sitting down opposite of the elder the younger sighed, "she's fitful tonight..." The younger watched as the elder just nodded before he relayed, "I know..." Glaring at the elder the younger raised from his seat but before he could say a word the elder closed his book and set it down upon the desk. "Sit Michael." Michael knew it was not a request, his father hardly ever gave requests. Setting back down he maintained his glare, "Just how long are you going to be mad at her..." The elder just shrugged, "who said I was still mad at her??"
"I do." They both looked up to see another male standing there this one much older, "You know she loves you. Quite being a stubborn old ass..." Michael's father now glared at the other male, "I'm not being stubborn...And for your information.." he never got to finish his sentence before the said female walked into the room rubbing her eyes, "Whats all the noise about..." she mumbled as she walked over to Michael's father making him more the chair so that she could curl up on his lap. Making the said man laugh. "They think I'm mad at ya lass." Her nose scrunched up at the lass part as she mumbled, "Don't call me lass Denny..." The eldest man in the room chuckled, "Well I guess that proves it then." They all turned to him, "What???" he asked curiously making a funny look on his face. A loud smack was heard just before the man yelled out, "DAMN IT!! THAT HURT WOMAN!!!" no one could help but laugh as the man fell to the floor holding on to his head in fake pain as an older looking female stood there smiling down at him, "that's for interfering and not taking me along..." she then looked up at the others. By now the smile had vanished from Denny's face, "AND YOU!!!" the woman pointed dead at Denny, "are in as much trouble as he is mister..." Michael decided that now would be the best time to stick up for his dear old dad and replayed to his Grandmother on behalf of his father, "Dad left you a note Nanny..." The woman blinked looking at Denny watching as his head nodded vigorously. "hmmm...then I guess I shall only punish this one..." she said as she bent over to grab the man on the ground by the ear. Michael winced then stood "i think i better go save Gramps..." He then walked over to his mother kissing her on the top of her head, and nodding to his dad before retreating from the room. The woman sighed, "Well that was entertaining...." Denny chuckled before raising his eyebrows in a suggestive movement, "I can think of other entertainment..." giggling the woman moved from his lap, "only if you think you can handle it Lord Water..." "Oh I know I can Lady Fire...." was all that was said before giggling could be herd. Michael rolled his eyes as he headed down the hall...
As the male walked out shutting the door behind him he walked down the hall towards a set of double doors. Pushing them open the young male looked up an older male. Their faces looking similar to each others though the younger seemed to have traces of the females looks. "Father." the younger said. Watching as the elder nod his head lightly not looking up from the book he was currently looking at.
Walking up to the desk then sitting down opposite of the elder the younger sighed, "she's fitful tonight..." The younger watched as the elder just nodded before he relayed, "I know..." Glaring at the elder the younger raised from his seat but before he could say a word the elder closed his book and set it down upon the desk. "Sit Michael." Michael knew it was not a request, his father hardly ever gave requests. Setting back down he maintained his glare, "Just how long are you going to be mad at her..." The elder just shrugged, "who said I was still mad at her??"
"I do." They both looked up to see another male standing there this one much older, "You know she loves you. Quite being a stubborn old ass..." Michael's father now glared at the other male, "I'm not being stubborn...And for your information.." he never got to finish his sentence before the said female walked into the room rubbing her eyes, "Whats all the noise about..." she mumbled as she walked over to Michael's father making him more the chair so that she could curl up on his lap. Making the said man laugh. "They think I'm mad at ya lass." Her nose scrunched up at the lass part as she mumbled, "Don't call me lass Denny..." The eldest man in the room chuckled, "Well I guess that proves it then." They all turned to him, "What???" he asked curiously making a funny look on his face. A loud smack was heard just before the man yelled out, "DAMN IT!! THAT HURT WOMAN!!!" no one could help but laugh as the man fell to the floor holding on to his head in fake pain as an older looking female stood there smiling down at him, "that's for interfering and not taking me along..." she then looked up at the others. By now the smile had vanished from Denny's face, "AND YOU!!!" the woman pointed dead at Denny, "are in as much trouble as he is mister..." Michael decided that now would be the best time to stick up for his dear old dad and replayed to his Grandmother on behalf of his father, "Dad left you a note Nanny..." The woman blinked looking at Denny watching as his head nodded vigorously. "hmmm...then I guess I shall only punish this one..." she said as she bent over to grab the man on the ground by the ear. Michael winced then stood "i think i better go save Gramps..." He then walked over to his mother kissing her on the top of her head, and nodding to his dad before retreating from the room. The woman sighed, "Well that was entertaining...." Denny chuckled before raising his eyebrows in a suggestive movement, "I can think of other entertainment..." giggling the woman moved from his lap, "only if you think you can handle it Lord Water..." "Oh I know I can Lady Fire...." was all that was said before giggling could be herd. Michael rolled his eyes as he headed down the hall...
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
Letter on desk....
My dearest love,
I stood at the gates of hell today, my love. He meet me there. He looked at me, smiled and said that my deal with him had been agreed apon. That I had but two hours before he would come for me... So I say this... Remember that I love you heart and soul, always and forever...
I am doing this of my own free will... Don't come after me, I need you not to do that. Please don't hate me for doing this it seems the only way I can save what is left. I need you to know that there is still light in this world and I hope that you will still be able to see that. And when the time comes you will see it... And you will feel it... I know I will slowly fade from your memory as a result of what I have done but you need to know I will always be there for you in one way or another. But again I say, just remember that I love you... My heart has always been yours and it will stay that way. One day I know I will be free from my deal and when that day comes I will return to be at your side once again. I need to know that you are safe... Good bye for now my love... Till next time... With all my love.
I love you,
Always,
Yours,
Vivi
I stood at the gates of hell today, my love. He meet me there. He looked at me, smiled and said that my deal with him had been agreed apon. That I had but two hours before he would come for me... So I say this... Remember that I love you heart and soul, always and forever...
I am doing this of my own free will... Don't come after me, I need you not to do that. Please don't hate me for doing this it seems the only way I can save what is left. I need you to know that there is still light in this world and I hope that you will still be able to see that. And when the time comes you will see it... And you will feel it... I know I will slowly fade from your memory as a result of what I have done but you need to know I will always be there for you in one way or another. But again I say, just remember that I love you... My heart has always been yours and it will stay that way. One day I know I will be free from my deal and when that day comes I will return to be at your side once again. I need to know that you are safe... Good bye for now my love... Till next time... With all my love.
I love you,
Always,
Yours,
Vivi
Thursday, March 4, 2010
2 hours.....
Viviane Maire Phoenix Lurra walks upstairs and into the office, sighing lightly as she congers a small deep red colored rose, one that she had remembered Denny having given her a long time ago. Bring it up to her nose she sniffs it lightly, the smell bringing a soft smile to her face as she remembers that she was once told her soul smelt like the very flower in which she was holding, before lifting her head to look forward. Taking a few small steps forward she enters the office. Stretching out her arm she gently places the rose on the desk, whispering softly "forgive me..." before walking out and back down the stairs as if she were never up there to begin with...
Her mind had been made up two hours earlier when she had made that deadly deal. She could only hope now that those she loves will eventually forgive her for what she was about to do. She would slowly fade from everyone's memories almost as if she never even was there to begin with. Her heart ached at the thought. He would forget her, and everything she had felt for him would no longer exist to him.
Maybe the journal with her words in it would still keep her simple words forever imprinted on the pages. Or maybe just like her they would fade from existence. There would be those whom she knew that if they ever discovered what she had done they would come for her. Her only hope was that they didn't. Fearing that if they did her deal would be broken and she'd lose him forever. As she stood starring at the books around her while her mind drifted back to what she was told. "Two hours... That is all I will give you..." Her skirts slightly rustling as she moved from foot to foot mumbling quietly, "two hours before I shall disappear...."
Walking silently around the room before turning to walk towards the doors. Stopping she turned to look back once again before disappearing into a ball of blue flames. Only to reappear in her room. Walking over to her small cherry colored oak desk. Bending down to pick up a pen, writing a short note on to the piece of paper she turned away. Walking the short distance to their bed, sitting down a pone the soft pillow feeling quilt, turning to lay down. She closed her eyes once her head hit the pillows.
Waking to a coughing noise, glancing around finding the source to be none other then a smoky figure, the one whom she had made the deal with standing there looking at her. Existing his hand he calmly asked, "ready?" Nodding once she felt her breathing slow to a stop, as she also felt her last heart beats pound in her chest before all went black. And resting in his hands was a small blue flame that danced and twisted its self around a single deep colored red rose, just like the one she had left her beloved on his desk. Grinning the smoky figure let out a small chuckle before disappearing back to where he belonged taking his new prize with him...
Her mind had been made up two hours earlier when she had made that deadly deal. She could only hope now that those she loves will eventually forgive her for what she was about to do. She would slowly fade from everyone's memories almost as if she never even was there to begin with. Her heart ached at the thought. He would forget her, and everything she had felt for him would no longer exist to him.
Maybe the journal with her words in it would still keep her simple words forever imprinted on the pages. Or maybe just like her they would fade from existence. There would be those whom she knew that if they ever discovered what she had done they would come for her. Her only hope was that they didn't. Fearing that if they did her deal would be broken and she'd lose him forever. As she stood starring at the books around her while her mind drifted back to what she was told. "Two hours... That is all I will give you..." Her skirts slightly rustling as she moved from foot to foot mumbling quietly, "two hours before I shall disappear...."
Walking silently around the room before turning to walk towards the doors. Stopping she turned to look back once again before disappearing into a ball of blue flames. Only to reappear in her room. Walking over to her small cherry colored oak desk. Bending down to pick up a pen, writing a short note on to the piece of paper she turned away. Walking the short distance to their bed, sitting down a pone the soft pillow feeling quilt, turning to lay down. She closed her eyes once her head hit the pillows.
Waking to a coughing noise, glancing around finding the source to be none other then a smoky figure, the one whom she had made the deal with standing there looking at her. Existing his hand he calmly asked, "ready?" Nodding once she felt her breathing slow to a stop, as she also felt her last heart beats pound in her chest before all went black. And resting in his hands was a small blue flame that danced and twisted its self around a single deep colored red rose, just like the one she had left her beloved on his desk. Grinning the smoky figure let out a small chuckle before disappearing back to where he belonged taking his new prize with him...
Wednesday, March 3, 2010
Misawa, Japan September 1, 1958
Today is a great day... Yes I am completely excited Misawa Finally became its own city... And I know you of all people know exactly how much I adore the cherry blossoms in the early spring that blossoms here. Or how I can open my window and see the apple orchard everyday. I must say other then Lua, I dearly love this place. Though I would enjoy it more if you were here more often... Tis very lonely here at times, and the sights around town are much more nicer when seen with another... But I know you are busy doing things that have to be done just as I am busy doing things that have to be done... Though please do not get mad when you see me next, for I had a rather uneventful accident the other day and it has caused me to be confined to my bed tis nothing major just a small cut. It will heal... I have to rest now goodnight my love.
I love you,
Always,
Yours,
Vivi
I love you,
Always,
Yours,
Vivi
Monday, March 1, 2010
1504 29 January Florence, Italy
Life has been rather boring but I can not complain. I have had few missions as of late... Though unforgettably they have been rather easy... I was hoping Niccolo would give me something harder to do but alas no.... Sorry dear I have got to go, a target just ran by...
I love you...
Vivi
I love you...
Vivi
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