ooc - baby ultrasounds

http://s209.photobucket.com/albums/bb283/cutelillbookworm/Baby/



yes the little minion as denny calls him :D

Pitures of wedding for those who want to see

http://s209.photobucket.com/albums/bb283/cutelillbookworm/

6 years, and the start of a new beginning (ooc)

Standing in the bathroom, with only 18 minutes left till I would get to see him, my maid of honor stood behind me trying to calm my nevus and to finish doing up the back of my gown. The day had been way to long in my own opinion, and rather stressful. Leave it up to my mother to wait till my wedding day to drive me even more bonkers. I had done cried from being frustrated and angry. "Raye Breath, its almost over, and don't cry." I could hear Jenny's words but all I wanted was to hurry up and walk down that aisle so I could be near him. I was not Vivi for this moment granted if I was she probably wouldn't have been as quiet as I was. Moments ticked by slowly to me till it was finally time.Taking my uncles offered arm I smiled a little then immediately dropped my head, I had been calm on the out side until then. Once we started walking I of coarse could no longer hide the fact that I was nervous. Shacking, walking as fast as my uncle would allow me, I walked towards Justin. Looking up briefly to see him standing there, I finally allowed myself to breath, he was there waiting for me. And after six years, today was the day that I would be taking his hands and together we'd start a new life. One that no matter what I wont regret he after all holds my heart, and soul in his hands. As some of our friends and family greet us after the 'I do's ' I can't help but smile and think of those who love us and yet aren't there to be physically present at the moment, but as I turn to look up into Justin's eyes, I know that they are there and will always be present in our lives. The day is over, a day that many didn't think would actually ever happen....
So here I sit the day after in what is now our room I find myself smiling happily and almost secretively to myself as I remember yesterday, and all the other days. I can't help but be confident that no madder what life throws at us we will meet it head on and together. For he holds my heart forever, and I will love him....

August 7th, 2003 7:15 am -- We became more then friends, we became boyfriend and girlfriend

August 7th, 2009 6:25 pm -- We became more.... We became husband and wife...

march 26...

For a lady who ment so much to me...
you became a nanny to me, and a friend.
I miss seeing you, and hearing you... we all do...
Christmas just wasnt christmas with out you, just like thanksgiving wasnt thanksgiving with out you. Even though i didnt get to know you for very long, i loved you like you were my own nanny. I remeber one day when i had came over there, Kathi and Tracy were there too, we all wear sitting around joking about men.
Lucy gave me a teadybear this year, just like you used too... walking in the stores at christmas i kept seeing all the teady bears that i could have givin you... it almost seemed like our inside thing to do... we gave each other teady bears from the start...
i love each one. they all stay near me when i sleep, one even stays hugging my head board...
You were the kindest, funniest lady ive known. I wish i had gotten to know you more... but dont we all wish for that...
its been one year............
one year, and at times i think i can pick up the phone and call you. but then i remeber i cant... but i know your hear... and that helps.

"I never knew til you were gone
how many pages you were on
it never ends I keep turning
and line after line and you are there again
I dont know how to let you go
you are so deep down in my soul
I feel helpless so hopeless
its a door that never closes
no I don't know how to do this

I've talked to friends
I've talked to myself
I've talked to God
I prayed liked hell but I still miss you
I tried sober I tried drinking
I've been strong and I've been weak
and I still miss you
I've done everything
move on like I'm supposed to
I'd give anything for one more minute with you
I still miss you yeah"

I still miss you, and i love you nanny....