Utopia - Within Teptation Lyrics

The burning desire to live and roam free

It shines in the dark
And it grows within me

You’re holding my hand but you don't understand
So where I am going, you wont be in the end

I’m dreaming in colors
Of getting the chance
Dreaming of trying the perfect romance

The search of the door, to open your mind
In search of the cure of mankind
Help us, we're drowning
So closed up inside
Why does it rain, rain, rain down on utopia?
Why does it have to kill the idea of who we are?
Why does it rain, rain, rain down on utopia?
How will the lights die down, telling us who we are?

I'm searching for answers, not given for free
You're hurting inside, is there life within me?

You're holding my hand but you don't understand
So you're taking the road all alone in the end
I'm dreaming in colors, no boundaries are there

I'm dreaming the dream, and I'll sing to share
In search of the door, to open your mind
In search of the cure of mankind
Help us, we're drowning
So close up inside
Why does it rain, rain, rain down on utopia
Why does it have to kill the idea of who we are?
Why does it rain, rain, rain, down on utopia?
And when the lights die down, telling us who we are

Why does it rain, rain, rain down on utopia
Why does it have to kill the idea of who we are?
Why does it rain, rain, rain down on utopia
And when the lights die down, telling us who we are
Why does it rain?

Close your eyes - poem - by me

Close your eyes
Allow the darker side
For once to take you
By surprise.

You may find that
With all things considered
We're not that much different

Close your eyes
And for once slip away
Allow all the pain
To go away.

You may find that
Once in a while its ok
To just let it all go

So just for once

Close your eyes
And take my hand
There is still much
That we can do.

If we just
Close our eyes.

Rivermaya - You'll be safe here

Nobody knows
Just why we're here
Could it be fate
Or random circumstance
At the right place
At the right time
Two roads intertwine

And if the universe conspired
To meld our lives
To make us
Fuel and fire
Then know
Where ever you will be
So too shall I be

Close your eyes
Dry your tears
'Coz when nothing seems clear
You'll be safe here

From the sheer weight
Of your doubts and fears
Weary heart
You'll be safe here

Remember how we laughed
Until we cried
At the most stupid things
Like we were so high
But love was all that we were on
We belong

And though the world would
Never understand
This unlikely union
And why it still stands
Someday we will be set free.
Pray and believe

Close your eyes
Dry your tears
'Coz when nothing seems clear
You'll be safe here

From the sheer weight
Of your doubts and fears
Weary heart
You'll be safe here

When the light disappears
And when this world's insincere
You'll be safe here
When nobody hears you scream
I'll scream with you
You'll be safe here

Save your eyes
From your tears
When everything's unclear
You'll be safe here

From the sheer weight
Of your doubts and fears
Wounded heart

When the light disappears
And when this world's insincere
You'll be safe here

When nobody hears you scream
I'll scream with you
You'll be safe here

In my arms
Through the long cold night
Sleep tight
You'll be safe here

When no one understands
I'll believe
You'll be safe,
You'll be safe
You'll be safe here
Put your heart in my hands
You'll be safe here

The truth, the past... pt 2

Denny walked into her room, chuckling softly at the position in which he found her. Her face lay on her open journal, turned to the side the pin still in her hand lay resting just at the opening of her lips. He couldn't help but smile at her it wasn't often that he would find her in such a position. Walking quietly over to her, he reached out a hand to move a few pieces of stray hair that had fallen over her check, sighing he bent down picking her up. Her body instantly turning to snuggle into his chest, glancing down at the woman in his arms he smiled as he carried her over to her bed. Laying her down as gently as he could he kissed her forehead, as he covered her with a blanket turning he walked out of the room. He would wait till later to talk with her, right now he decided she needed her rest.

Sleep had taken her hours ago in her dreams she was back in that tent where she first meet Green Leigh.

Green Leigh sat there across from Viviane both had been chatting away for hours about nothing and yet everything. Vivi had only been in Leigh's care for about a month, and yet already the neko could tell that the woman sitting in front of her was different then others. She had witnessed it at night her self. The flames bursting from Vivi's body as she slept when she had nightmares, only to wake the next morning having no memory of any nightmares yet remembering the flames. Leigh had also come to realize that Vivi was rather well talented with a blade or rather two daggers. Her stealth and ability to remain hidden also had been noticed by the neko. So one night just out of pure curiosity and the want of a job done but not having the time to do it her self, she had turned to Vivi asking her to do the job for her. Vivi had agreed rather reluctantly, the job was simple get in kill the man and get out. All of which Vivi had managed to do and be back with in an hour, she had left no trace of her leaving or returning. Leigh finding that Vivi could do jobs such as these offered Vivi a job of doing them for her. Agreeing a bargain was set...

A few days later an extremely pissed off Leigh came matching in to Vivi's tent ranting and raving about two men who had just ruined forever her statue. The statue that was supposed to be being built in her likeness as a token from her followers. Tilting her head to the side while standing, Vivi walked over to Leigh and ask her simply "would you like me to take care of it?" Vivi watched as the neko in front of her nodded her head rapidly, "yes make them pay... This is completely unspeakable and unforgivable..." Nodding Vivi turned grabbing her daggers, taking the sheaths to each placing them on the bed in front of her. Vivi lifted her foot placing it on the bed pulling up her dress to hip level she reached down picking up one of the sheaths strapping its worn leather around her mid thigh, pulling at the sheath and smiling satisfied when it didn't move from its location she removed her foot form the bed and repeated the process with the other leg, all the while barely lessening to the rantings of the neko. Once done she turned placing a hand on Leigh's shoulder interrupting her Vivi simply muttered, "I'll return shortly..." As she exited the tent she had no idea that she was about to in counter two men who would change her life forever. One would become her lover, and best friend, the man she'd risk her life for. The other would become like a brother, a klutzy one, but a brother none the less. Their names are...

Denenthorn Darkstorm Masukami and Sinthorn Nagorski.....

The truth, the past...

"You called me?" She asked the man in front of her, his only response was a slight nod of his head. Waiting for him to tell her exactly what reasons he had for calling her, seeing as how the man in front of her hardly ever sent word asking for her to meet him somewhere with matters to discuss. She watched as he turned and walked up a spiral stair case, following closely behind him she ascended the stairs quietly. Once they reached the third floor he turned to his left opening a large wooded door holding it open he gesture for her to enter stepping forward she entered one of the few rooms she has come to love. Stacked from floor to ceiling were books of all sizes the smell of old paper and leather instantly flied her nose, in the center of the room sat a couch while off in one corner sat a dark wooden oak desk behind it a large bay window from which one could see for miles. Stepping silently into the room she casually walked over to the couch and sat down, looking up at the man waiting patiently for him to come into the room and tell her why exactly he had called her there.
His eyes showed a bit of sadness, his black hair just as dark as one of his sons, walking into the room he closed the door silently. She watched and waited patiently as he walked over to the couch to sit down beside her. "Viviane..." he sighed. Tilting her head she waited not wanting to disturb him. "My dear I believe I have finally figured out your mystery..." looking up at him she blinked "You don't sound to happy Khons." He smirked, "no, I am happy that we finally know. I'm just not to pleased about the circumstances that brought you into existence." She sat there still waiting scared. Part of her wanted to know, yet part of her didn't. She craved the knowledge that she knew he had searched for, but yet fear held her back from asking. The whys had constantly pledged her through the millenniums but answers the those questions had also eluded her at the same time. Yet now after all this time, someone finally was offering to tell her the whys and the answers.
He watched her as she sat there beside him, he could tell that she was interested in the answers he had found but yet he could also see the fear in her eyes. He decided he wouldn't continue until she told him she was ready to hear the true. Her truth... Khons knew this would be painful for her to hear, yet he knew no one else could tell her, it seemed to be his fate to tell the girl beside him what she really was. It seemed to be slightly a cruel fate for her. When her hazel eyes finally rose to meet his they held a look of pure desire to know the true. Sighing he nodded once licking his lips he began what he knew would be a long and painful truth, for both of them. The past was something rather hard.
"You are from someones imagination, or rather a manifestation of someones thoughts. That someone died a very long time ago, but as it seems in her final thoughts she thought of a female, thus creating you. How you ended up on earth rather then in Light I have yet to quite figure out. But I can tell you rather who it was that created you, Lorelei. She was killed before Light fell. I'm sure you know of her story so I wont tell you the details of that. And seeing as how you were formed from her imagination it shows why you have no memory of a childhood and as to why none of us remember ever seeing you, yet we know that you some how had ties to Light..." She listened intently to his words, her heart fell 'I'm nothing more then a figment... But I feel real.' She felt his fingers curl around her chine bringing her head up so he could look her in the eyes "You are real my dear, as real as I am. She made you real. You might have once been just an idea, but she turned that idea into a real breathing person. Don't think ever think that you aren't real because dear you are. Other wise we wouldn't be able to see, feel, hear, and touch you. Your being created explains how you have the powers that you have. And why you are as old as you are. No normal human would live as long as you have, nor would any wizard no matter how powerful. Do you understand? You are real." Nodding her head lightly, she whispered a weak "yes."
"Good. Now on to other matters." His voice changed from being soft to being stern. She knew that he was about to either lecture her or about to tell her that she had screwed up at something, wincing a little she tried to put on her best 'I'm innocent' look. At seeing her face he had no choose but to chuckle at her, "I'm sorry dear but I for one know you're not innocent. But never mind that. What I'm about to tell you I'm telling you because I know you. I want you to stay away from Spectre. Stop chasing him. He's not your fight, I know you feel that you need to, but my dear he's not yours to go after. He's my arrogant son's to deal with. And no I have yet to tell that moron what you have been up to, but don't think him stupid or blind Viviane. He has a feeling about what you've been doing and you know as well as I that when his suspensions are confirmed he's going to be pissed. So will you try to stay away from Spectre?" Looking into his eyes she knew if she lied he'd know sighing, tilting her head to the side she replied with a frown, "you know I can not. You know I would if I could, but I know that the moment I were to stop going after him he'd come for me. You know that. It's his game he lives for it. I'm afraid I have been playing this game with him for so long that he would be suspicious if it were to suddenly stop. And I have children I need to think about Khons, your grandchild is innocent and I won't sit back and let a monster run wild when I can possibly do something about it." She was rather surprised when he nodded in agreement but then his words didn't surprise her in the least, "I know but who's to say that he's yours to deal with." Looking away she choose not to reply, knowing in ways he was right. But also in ways that she was too. It may not have to be her fight but she was still going to fight none the less.
Hearing his sigh she turned back to him. He raised his hand and gestured to the door, "go home and rest dear I believe I've told you all I can possibly tell you tonight." Nodding she stood, turning towards him she bent down and hugged him, whispering lightly to him "thank you." Standing straight back up she turned and walked quietly to the door, opening it slightly she slipped out and down the stairs. Exiting the tower taking a deep breath, closing her eyes she felt her self shift from where standing outside the tower to standing in her room. Opening her eyes taking in the room she turned to the old wooden desk that lay in the corner of her room. Walking over to the desk, pulling out the chair that sat still behind it pulling out her journal she wrote down everything Khons had told her. After finishing she sat back holding the pin between two finger while the end rested between her lips. She let her mind wounder back to as far as she could all the way back to the first time she can remember opening her eyes...
Heat... A scorching sun bared down on her while burning sand lay under her, every part of her body was exposed to the elements, she lay there necked under the roasting sun in the Libyan desert. A shadow soon fell over the girls body the words "oh lord" could be herd from a female sounding voice. The sand by the body shifted as the one who had been standing moved to sit beside the brunette that laid in the sand, a hand tentatively reached out to check for a pulse finding one the hand moved away. The body was soon covered from the sun with a thin breathable cloth, as the female voice shouted orders around. Hands reached out and picked up the body from the ground caring it to a near by shelter. Days past before the girl awoke laying covered in a thin red dress she blinked her eyes taking in her surroundings she saw what looked like a female standing in the entrance of the tent. But as it moved closer she found that the female had black cat ears on top of her head, and a long bushy black tail. The neko was dressed in a green gown. The girl didn't move as the neko neared her. "Don't worry I wont hurt you." It said reassuringly, and some how the girl believed her. "Do you know your name?" The girl tilted her head to one side pondering the question to her self. 'Name... My name... My name is "Viviane" she said softly, the neko smiled "good, my name is Green Leigh" Viviane smiled back...

Another time...

Tragedies... Analogies... Eclipsed...

"When broken where will you go?" his voice could be herd echoing around the silent room as he watched the girl in front of him. Her back faced him as she stood looking out the window watching the rain fall, her slender arms wrapped around her upper body as she hugged her self. She made no attempt to answer his question, she knew it would be useless to try and explain to him everything that she had seen threw the years. And why she would go back there. It was where her heart lied, a place were only a few knew it resided. A place that she could nearly call home...

But you can't have everything you want when you want it...

She wanted to not have to worry with the minor details. There was a job to do, and it needed to be done. Humanity... Something that she knew others had already given up on. But she just could not follow their ideas just yet. There was still some innocents left in the world she believed. And that little bit of light she was not going to give up on just yet. She'd defined it even if it cost her everything... Her hazel colored eyes watched every little detail that passed in front of them. Blending into the shadows was something she had learned along time ago to do. Out of the corner of her eye she saw it. What she had spent the last few months chasing, waiting and watching for. Watching as the figure move into a dark ally across the road from where she stood. Waiting just a few seconds before she stepped across the road to fallow, pulling out a dagger from under her jacket sleeve as she entered the ally. This would hopefully end tonight, and then there would be no need for her to have to chase the ghost any longer. But as she continued to fallow him she knew, it would never end, this was his game not hers. She was just a pawn, she knew it the moment he turned showing her his face with that twisted smile...

Condemned...

She was condemned to this fate, she had escaped but that did not mean he had not leave his mark on her. Having left the small town she had found him in days ago, she now looked up upon the one building that she knew she could come to when she needed rest. Walking up the steps and entering the door the smell of old books hit her, sighing just ever so quietly to her self she walked to her place in front of the fire and sat down. Relaxing and letting her guard down if only for a few blissful moments before she'd let the world take her back to its darkness. A darkness she has come to know all to well... But for the moment she was home.

Flyleaf - Again

I love the way your heart breaks
With every injustice and deadly fate
Praying it all will be new
And living like it all depends on you

Here you are down on your knees again
Trying to find air to breathe again
Only surrender will help you now
I love you please see and believe again

I love that you're never satisfied
With face value wisdom and happy lies
You take what they say and go back and cry
You're so close to me that you nearly died

Here you are down on your knees again
Trying to find air to breathe again
Only surrender will help you now
I love you please see and believe again

They don't have to understand you
Be still
Wait and know I understand you
Be still
Be still

Here you are down on your knees again
Trying to find air to breathe again
Only surrender will help you now
The floodgates are breaking
And pouring out

Here you are down on your knees
Trying to find air to breathe
Right where I want you to be again
I love you please see and believe again

Here you are down on your knees again
Trying to find air to breathe again
Right where I want you to be again
See and believe