metting and found

Wondering around the city, just because she was in need of some air, that and she was growing board of the library. Coming across a interesting girl, who for some odd reason made Vivi fell the strong urge to get a hold of some candy. After a few moments she found out the girls name was Vikki. But as luck would have it, during their conversation Denny shows... the one person whom she had been trying her damnest to avoid since coming back to the city. she knew for a fact that if she had any injurys he'd discover them or hed try and find out what she had been up to, while out of the city, but thankfuly those questions were not asked... as both dissapeared from her sight vivi sighed, knowing it was only a matter of time before her secret would be found out...

Returning....

Standing by the railing, absent mindfully squeezing the cold medal that was under her cold fingertips, she sighed. Just enough to give away the fact that she was thinking again but also, not loud enough that anyone could have herd her. Thoughts as of late had been of the past, a past that at times seemed lost or just way to far away to grasp. Her life had become complicated. Things that she were once so sure of now were not. Her long coat covered the fact that she had lost a fight, the cut occasionally stinging her when she moved her arm just right.
The loss of her latest fight still aggravated her. It wasn't the first time she had lost against this particular opponent, and she highly doughted that it would be the last either. He was rather strong, and unfortunately a rather pain in the butt to kill. Even if it wasn't necessarily her job to kill this particular person, she still decided that it would be better for her to do it rather then the person who actually should be doing it.
She actually couldn't quite say that it was a loss though shed mark it as one. In the fight she had at lest managed to land one hit, though her opponent had landed one on her too, then had fled. Forcing her to leave and give up the chase after searching for the man for a good few months.
So she had came back to the city, though why she still hadn't quite figured out yet. After all the enemy could easily find her there. But as of late she had became quite fond of her 'disappearing acts' as some liked to call it. Though they really were just assignments. But with all of them done for the time being she had to come back to the city, till she was needed yet again. And until that call comes, shed have to be content with being where she was. Not that she didn't love the city. It was just that there was so many memories and so many gaps in those memories that left her wanting and needing.
She could tell that there were people in the library, but at the moment she didn't feel like moving from her spot. The sun had already set, making her position on the balcony hard to spot from below or from behind her. Moving just a bit her back hit the cooling stone of the wall. 'Old habits die hard' she told her self as a smile crept on her face. Though it was short lived as the stern line all to quickly replaced the smile. 'One must always be on alert, even if they are hidden.'

a place called home.....

home... what was that... was it a place with a roof and 4 walls or was it just an idea. a retreat from the surrounding world... the idea of a home was among things felting at the moment... opening her eyes and glancing around Vivi found her self not where she was at last... old stone walls covered with vines stood to her left. trees and high grass to her right... it was quite a little to quite... but yet the silence was comforting in an odd since. standing up from the ground she let her feet do the walking for her... taking her to someplace... she for once wasn't alarmed or terrified, but yet calm and had a since that she knew this place... but where it was she could remember... the coldness of the cobble stone walkway under her bear feet felt welcoming... walking along the walkway turning here and there but not really paying much attention to where she was going, she suddenly stopped... in front of her stood a rod iron gate partially covered with the same vines that covered the walls... reaching out her hand... then she herd it, her name being called by a woman... dropping her hand from mid air, she turned frantically searching for the person... 'momma' she herd her self call...
gasping for breath she sat up in her bed panting and looking around... finding her self alone as always, curling her knees up to her chest idally reaching up to rube the crystal around her neck... 'one day' she promised her self one day shed find a place called home... where she is loved and wanted... and one day shed find that woman who calls to her in her dreams and that place...

jane said it

I think I may boast myself to be, with all possible vanity, the most unlearned and uninformed female who ever dared to be an authoress.

Jane Austen (1775-1817)

Lullaby by Shawn Mullins

She grew up with the children of the stars
In the Hollywood hills in the Boulevard
Her parents threw big parties, everyone was there
They hung out with folks like Dennis Hopper, and Bog Seager, and Sunny and Cher
She feels safe now in this bar in Farfax
And from the stage I can tell that she can't let go and she can't relax
And just before she hangs her head to cry
I sing to her a lullabye

I say "Everything's gonna be alright
Rockabye, rockabye
Everything's gonna be alright
Rockabye, rockabye, rockabye

She still lives with her mom outside the city
Down that street about a half a mile
And all her friends tell her she's so pretty
But she'd be whole lot prettier if she smiled once in a while
'Cause even her smile looks like a frown
She's seen her share of devils in this angel town

I say "Everything's gonna be alright
Rockabye, rockabye
Everything's gonna be alright
Rockabye, rockabye, rockabye

I told her, "I ain't so sure about this place
It's hard to play a gig in this town and keep a straight face
It seems like everybody with a plan
It's kinda like Nashville, with a tan."

I say "Everything's gonna be alright
Rockabye, rockabye
Everything's gonna be alright
Rockabye, rockabye, rockabye

I say "Everything's gonna be alright
Rockabye, rockabye
Everything's gonna be alright
Rockabye, rockabye, rockabye

Bye, bye
Bye, bye...

msg

im happy even when i dont look it, people cant be happy 24/7 and you know im not that great on showing emotion. in the last 6 years ive learned that i have to. old habits die hard. im trying,

meow mew purr

learning how to bend.............

falling slowly..

thank you...

im not sorry, and that was me being nice by the way...

your my best friend, my sister, nuff said

i had to learn how to be strong, but what you need to learn is that ive lived this long with out you in my life. and its cause of events that have taken place in my life that have made me the way i am. just cause i apear strong and as though i can handle everything, that doesnt mean i havent fell a few times and that doesnt mean i dont know what it means to have to crawl my way back to were i am...and by the way its your loss not mine.

my life and past are just that... my past... if i left you there, then dont worry about trying to come in to my present...

if i am what some think i am, would it be so bad???

the rain stoped..

theres never to much in this life that one cant over come or handle....

Rascall flatts -God bless the broken road

I set out on a narrow way many years ago
Hoping I would find true love along the broken road
But I got lost a time or two
Wiped my brow and kept pushing through
I couldn't see how every sign pointed straight to you

[Chorus:]
Every long lost dream led me to where you are
Others who broke my heart they were like northern stars
Pointing me on my way into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you

I think about the years I spent just passing through
I'd like to have the time I lost and give it back to you
But you just smile and take my hand
You've been there you understand
It's all part of a grander plan that is coming true

[Chorus:]
Every long lost dream led me to where you are
Others who broke my heart they were like northern stars
Pointing me on my way into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you

Now I'm just rollin' home into my lover's arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road that led me straight to you